Some Random Thought...

4:35 am

That's the time the alarm clock went off this morning. I barely could get the motiviation to get up. I always have a sick feeling when I get up in the morning when I head to work.

Almost like a panic attack. Not that I know what a panic attack feels like. But just a feeling of dread and wanting to quit work.

I think of the things I need to do, what meetings to attend, what emails to write. And then the sick feeling comes up almost immediately.

I have to really concentrate and think of one good thing just so I can get out of bed. It sounds stupid but it's true. Something as simple as, a new shower gel I bought from Bath and Body Works. This is what motivates me get out of bed most of the time. Now that I think of it, is shower gel the only reason why I get up to go to work ? Pathetic.

Anyhow, I gotta get my ass moving. I only have 10 minutes to get ready. Besides, I am looking forward to that new shower gel 'Tranquility Mint' to help me relax this Monday morning. I hope this stuff works.